these days

So, the last few days have been pretty exhausting. There have been multiple issues coming up with some folks I know, and they have all taken their toll. I don't really want to go into it here, but I do want to make some observations about people in general.

1. Everyone is fucked up in their own special way,
2. At some point you are going to have to parent your own parent, and most likely it will stay that way once it happens,
3. Sometimes when you see red flags, you shouldn't try to talk yourself into it just to prove a point, 
4. There isn't enough kindness in the world.

As to that last one...Why is it so hard for people to just be kind?  I try to be kind. I know I am not always successful, or maybe I think I am more successful than I really am. It's a basic thing, but it's so hard for a lot of people. I guess people are afraid of being taken advantage of, or being misinterpreted. I don't know. Tomorrow, I am going to make an effort to be kind, all day long. I think you should too.

clean house. eat. live. work. repeat every 7 days.

Saturday morning is usually my cleaning day. As the week comes to an end, I unconsciously start to become very messy. Somewhere in there I know Saturday is coming and it will get cleaned up then. I have shoes scattered in the living room, Emma's dog toys all over the place. Kitchen table with the last few days of mail on it. Dirty dishes in the sink, laundry overflowing the basket. Kitty litter box ignored.
I don't know why I do this, because it ends up driving me crazy. I start to get anxious, I avoid looking around. Life would be so much more enjoyable if I just dealt with it as it came up. Ugh. I can't seem to learn this lesson, however. So, here I am, Saturday morning, giant list of to-do in front of me.

But first, a trip to the market with Joe. Then yardwork, laundry, sweeping, dog bathing.

In other, more exciting news: I am going to DC next month for a work training, and I was able to book an earlier flight into BWI. This means I get to see S and M for the weekend before the training. In addition to three windows in my office, this job has some definite perks.